To Complain Or Not To Complain? What's The Question?

Okay! So it's been a while. i normally only surf the internet when i have time, and since school rolled out again, i had to wake up to the harsh reality that not only will i not be able to play resident evil 5 because of the inconvenience of my laaammme XBOX360 for giving me something of a stink eye (the red ring), but i have to do work. Some trivial work, and some that makes sense (i mean you lunch time).

So i've been trying to catch up with my peers who have a high status of succeeding in school than i will ever have!

Did i tell you i got a part in Les Miserables???? yees, and no, it's not a big part, but at least it's not a whore part. (yep there are prostitutes in this musical) It's more of an opera. Almost the whole musical is singing no acting, the difference is it's not unbearable, trust me.

WHOOAAAA plus there's this guy who plays Javert (Jawvere) and he is HOOOT! like spic-aye!

Anywayysss. I've been eating an awful lot. I feel like there should be a weight watchers for teens. I'm not fat, im curvy though, and like some curvy girls who are tired of seeing slim people fit into a size 2, we have to step up a couple sizes, because our behinds are too big! It's like you want to go on a mild diet, just to keep yourself in check, but as a teen it's kinda embarrassing, because people ask you "why are you on a diet?" or "What are you trying to do, lose weight?" yeah... people are REAL supportive these days. But just know it should be only for YOU and no one else, and that's hard to say when you ACTUALLY are ready. Sometimes it's only because you want to look good, sometimes the statement "I can't live like this anymore" appears. That's when you know. But yeah...

I have soo many decisions to make, like what color to dye my hair, and if i should let that lady that burns my ears whenever she flat irons my hair cut it. Should i go to Momo Con with irresponsible kids driving (i already know that answer NO!) But i reallly wanna go to this con, but i have no ride. =((( And should i worry about my future, or worry about my little brother who's not getting the education he deserves and isn't receiving because my parents' negligence.

And other things like should Mandy bring world peace to the world, or go along with everyone else and ignore the fact that The U.S is in a complete pickle!!!

All in all, life is still manageable. In a world where Quest Crew is the champions of ABDC season 3, i can continue living happily (until i break). Keep it locked.

Peace is that way------>    Mandy.d

The Regret(s)

Bleak title, and letters today. I didn't feel like making this happy. i thought that would be appropriate. I dunno if i spelled that right. I'm very sleepy, so this blog won't make all that much sense. But i was thinking about all the wrong i have done to people, and leveling out all the good i have done for people. The result (in my mind) was negative. i hadn't really done anything amazingly well for anyone. I feel like i have just been there, and then i would leave out of convenience for me. In spite of myself and my realization to this, i continually live without thinking about all the hurt people i have harmed, and have not cared for.

The guy i liked and let go long ago, now has a new girlfriend, and get this... She sounds "promising". I'm so happy for him, yet i feel myself getting mad at myself for letting him go, he was a good guy. But it is what it is, and i'm glad he's happy. More updates on this regret matter later. 

Peace is that way...? ------>   Mandy.d

You Don't have to Play The Game....

I make it very clear to my "newly" made friends that i don't date. It's not an extremist religion principle or anything, it's not that i'm "bi" or "gay". It's not that i hate everything, it's just that i feel hopeless trying to put myself out there; to go about and just get your heart broken by useless nuisance. This was the conversation with my VERY good friend Agnes. 

But her views on dipping your feet into water, is complete opposite of the average teenage visual on "love" and "dating".

Her thing is that it's never to late to fall in love, and that you shouldn't rush these things. Those that love you will be attracted to you, so you don't have to go around tossing yourself on every person you meet. There's someone out there for you, and instead of being like everyone else, Agnes sees it fit to just wait it out.

But what if you become lonely, like most people who haven't even dated yet? isn't it alright to just try it out for once, or should you play it at safe and stay away from temptation?

OMMMMMGGG i have a super smash brawl match in two daaaayyyys! I'm really not all that good, but my school is trying to raise money for RELY FOR LIFE! yayayayayyyy!

Weeeelllll, like i was saying. Agnes said this line, and it got me thinking

"You don't have to play the game to know how, just read the instructions."

Meaning, you don't have to go date to know how to date, just read what people had to say about their experiences, and follow your intuition. 

With that said, do what you feel people, if you look for love, look in the right place. If you aren't looking for it, but you feel lonely, focus on something that else, because lonely feelings are normal. It doesn't mean you need love, it just means you need time for yourself. =)

Peace is that way ----->      Mandy.d  

Let's Be Honest.

Yo! Konitchiwa! er, well however you spell it. I feel like it's a good thing to learn how to say "hello" in at least 3 different languages, because in the end, we all are people, so we should treat each other like it and say "Hello!" =) If you don't know the language, you should at least know how to make a greeting, because that's the first impression you give someone. We all smile in the same way, as well as saying hello, so smack on a shape, show your face, place that smile in the right phase, and say "HELLO!" =D

Omgggg, Agnes is gone! i left her house like 2 hours ago. =/ i miss her already, i just watched her video of me texting like crazy. (youtube.com/sengalagnes) LOOK IT UP! haha she loves Jonas Brothers (jb) NOT "blow Job" you crazy fools.

Soooo i'm in Georgia, and it's sleeting like a mofo! They say that it's a 100% chance of snow, but i'm skeptical, since they've been saying that SHHIIIZZZ since like Jesus' birth! So i'm sitting here waiting.... and waiting... and waiting... and-GOD MY LIFE IS BORING!

Okay! :D how bout something uber exciting? I stayed up so late that i am friggin tired as hex, and even though i feel like i'm gonna pass out and die, i've decided to sit here and tell you a little bit about.... i dunno, oh YEAH! I wanna see Watchman, but i nervous that it won't be as amazing as the graphic novel (i like reading a lot and one of the things i like reading are graphic novels!). So it'll be showing up soon, and i know i'm gonna watch it, but then again you don't want to spend a lot of money on something that isn't fantastic, especially in this economical crisis. Everything is a big decision, every purchase counts, and if you waste it, you feel like "Damn, i could have used that for more food stamps." which isn't a funny matter, because there are people out there that need 'em. My heart goes out to those people.

OMGGGGOZ! i'm so Mad! I have an xbox360. The games on the console are amazing; however, like an upset, bipolar emo biznitch, xbox360's have a thing for falling apart and committing suicide inconveniently (not that any day is naturally convenient). MY xbox360 decided it was to good for me to even show me the "red ring of death". It just went BAM! Done. I have sent it in already 3 times, and each time i sit down to play it, the same symptoms happen. The people that fix it, send it back in and say some shizz like "We placed your xbox360 through some animal cruelty test, and it seemed to have responded well, accept for the fact that we tested it with a hamster wheel providing the energy, so it should work fine."

GRRRRR! >=CCCCCC so pissed! The 3rd time i sent it in, they sent a letter saying that it's some kinda "power surge" problem in my house, it some how gives my xbox seizures like effin crazy and messes it up, and that i need to unplug everything, then wait, then plug it back in. It broke the next day i got it back. Nothing works. OMGGG GRRR BLAHHH asdfghjkl! Whatever, it's a 

"Hair Flip". ;)

MAAAN, so because of that i won't be able to review Resident evil 5, because the fixers of the xbox360s wanna BS me and send it back in with a slap to the face attached to it. Why can't they send me a new one in, it's not like it's gonna cost 'em. Let's be honest, Bill Gates makes money every single second them xbox360's are being placed through animal cruelty test. lol

Peace is that way----->           Mandy.d